So many things hold me back from having the kind of relationship with God that He created me for, but it all comes down to one thing; I don’t have a proper respect for God, because I don’t fully understand who He is.
But it gets worse; as I have gotten to know Him more, I am realizing just how much I don’t – and never will – know about Him.
This should drive me to a place of dependence on him, and it should give me the desire to seek Him out even more; but there are times when I allow it to do the opposite. A healthy relationship cannot be one sided. He knows me better than I know myself, and a relationship with Him requires me to put everything I have into getting to know Him. All too often, I give up seeking Him because I get stumped in one little area.
But it’s times like this when I can almost hear Him say, “I’ll be here when you decide to put that aside and let Me show you all these other things about Myself.” There are some things in life that I need to wrestle with, but I just won’t be able to wrap my brain around everything he says. If I am going to thrive in my relationship with Him, I need to accept things to be what he says they are, and move on; because when I stay stuck, I am held back from countless other things He wants to show me.
On the other hand, it is so easy for me to become complacent and say, “Wow God, that’s awesome, thanks for the show; I think I’ll get back to my life now.” That is a cop out – because the only easy thing to do in any relationship is to leave – and it is so wrong. First, my life is not my own; and second, I am forfeiting the kind of relationship He created me to have with Him. All because I have eternity to spend with Him doesn’t mean I shouldn’t be getting to know Him now.
Our God is big, so much bigger than we will ever be able to fathom on this side of Heaven; yet how often do I ask Him to show me more of Himself? How often do I think past the ‘here and now’ to the eternity I am going to spend with Him, and prepare for it?
As I mentioned earlier, my deepening relationship with my Creator and Savior makes me realize how little I really know Him; but it has also become so sweet as I partake in the intimacy I was created to have with Him.
Proclaiming His Goodness 
Yes, yes, yes! Loved this post, Rebecca!
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Ohhh, so true. Thank you for the kick in the pants I needed to quit being lazy in my walk with Him. Makes me think of taking a walk with Isaac. We’ll start out walking together, but when the road gets a little steep he wants me to carry him. I insist he walk and sometimes maybe that’s what God is saying to us. “Walk, child; I gave you two good legs, use them!”
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I love the analogy!
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Nice post. Setting aside something everyday to make sure that I “be still and know that He is God” is essential. Some days drown us however, and we found that we didn’t read His Word. Those days, I thank Him for the grace to have gotten through that day, and I realize that He carried me. Those are good days too. I just didn’t get to see something new in His Word, but I did “know and rely on the love God has for me.” For me, I had to learn to stop beating myself up if I didn’t get in His Word on a given day, and just accept His grace and love. Relationship with God can grow those drowning days too, but it is a different kind of growth – experiencing the mysteries of God’s grace.
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So true, He is always faithful to us even when we are not faithful to Him.
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