My Agenda, Or His?

I don’t want to forge my own path.

I don’t want to pursue my own dreams.

Because I don’t ever want to be independent from my Heavenly Father.

I don’t ever want to move beyond a childlike faith in my Heavenly Father – because that itself is the formula for a life lived to the fullest possible measure.

Today’s culture says that if you work hard enough, you can fulfill your dreams – and the more bold and shocking, the bigger impression you will make. Just pull yourself up by your bootstraps and get to work, they say. Don’t let anything hold you back! But this philosophy is so wrong, because it promotes independence from God. My life is not about me, so the pursuit of making myself happy is a waste of time, and it will be futile because things of this world won’t fulfill me permanently. I have never regretted the times I have exchanged my dreams and desires for His, and I know I never will.

The problem I face most often, however, is that I lack courage to go where God wants me to go and to do what He wants me to do. He only gives good gifts, but I have realized that He often asks me to go to hard places to get those treasures. When I am not walking closely with God, fear of the journey will keep me from the blessings because I don’t trust Him enough to believe that He is leading me to a good place. A few months ago, I had an opportunity I almost didn’t take advantage of simply because it was outside of my comfort zone; but because I took it, I received the blessings God had for me in it.

I want to have complete trust in Him, so I can boldly go wherever He sends me; because closeness with my Heavenly Father and boldness and willingness to do whatever He asks are inseparable. I want to have the kind of faith that trusts God’s sovereignty, not the kind of faith that trusts myself and my abilities. I don’t want to leave the safety of my Father’s care. This is my biggest goal in life.